In the quicksands of time I was dissolving. No it wasn't a nightmare. It was reality at its worst. There was this desperation to escape it. Ran so fast that it felt like the heart was beating outside of my body. Adrenaline rush it was. Can't say if it was the good kind or the bad. I was gasping for breaths. It was like pleading rather begging to live while this dark cloud was closing in from all around. Like I explained to you, trying to escape it became the only option. And then I soon found myself locked in the midst of some four walls. So escaping wasn't a possibility anymore. And I almost gave in.
It was dark. Visibility was minimal. But what did I know so fighting back became my only option except didn't know as to who was the opponent here? Had no idea as to how strong that force was? But fighting back was the alternative selection here. And It was just us. That dark cloud and myself. My breaths became limited. Though I must admit that nothing was depriving me of my deserved breaths. My concentration was diverted towards winning this battle. It was even a struggle to breathe at that point. If anything, isolation from it all was my own choice. Because giving in would have been the wiser option but silly me had other preferences.
And then came the climax of it all. It got even darker. I entered the abyss. That feeling of bleakness persisted. Letting go and embracing defeat was the only option left now. Had I known that the memoirs once written in my mind would unfold like this, I would have just prayed for something else. Perhaps the same story with the same climax but fast forwarded until this part. And let me tell you as to what happened next. The very abyss became my bliss.
Life turned into an absolute irony and it became impossible to prison the very thing that eventually ended up captivating me instead. What did I know at that moment? How long was this going to be for? Well had I known that it would imprison me for eternity, I swear to you my darling, I swear...
I would have given in much earlier.
Because in the hollows of uncertainty it was our spirits who were finally at peace post finding each other. And now... life's unfolding at its own pace as I watch you sleep tonight while remembering that for sure today has been okay but here's kissing you good night with a promise that tomorrow will be better.
Sweet dreams. :)