Monday, June 4, 2012

And I Wonder If I Ever Cross Your Mind

We were in the wrong place at the right time. At least we got something right for a change. Everything around us was wrong and that was because everything in us was at fault. Maybe it was our genetic make-up. Maybe it hit us like a mutation gone so wrong. After all not all mutations are harmful. I would know. They think I'm a scientist so I guess I would know.

The past wreckage came with what was unfolding in our present. We couldn't avoid it so we just welcomed it. Your love was going to be my safety net. That's what you had promised me. Silly me, I believed you with my eyes closed. And I wasn't any less pathetic. I promised you the world when I was burning in the hell of my own desires. How could I have promised you all that? It was unfair on my part. I'm sorry for that by the way.

The mind is set free from your memories. All of them. Except for just one. The one where I see us watching "500 Days Of Summer" in a loop. Come to think of it I don't need to remember anything else. It seems to me that I lived a lifetime with you when ever we sat down to watch that movie. You had a serious crush on Zoey Deschanel and I could never understand as to why. For most people their go to movie was "The Note Book" but we were different. We were above and beyond most people.

And that was our problem. We were different from most people but before that we were too different from each other. We were on different pages. Pages of two different books. But life had placed us side by side and we were trying to give it a try. Then somehow we stopped trying. We became lazy.

And now years have passed. You are nothing but a lingering memory. A memory that creeps up on me from time to time. A memory that often makes me cringe for some reason. I regret even meeting you. I love to hate you. But its all because I've never been able to love anyone so dearly as I loved you. I will never be able to. Its just not possible anymore. You brought me here and then you stopped trying and I haven't been able to love anyone since then.

So that is the reason as to why I hate you. But that's mainly because I never stopped loving you.

Its complicated. Its like DNA. Its intertwined. You won't understand. Just so you know.. like that Lady Antebellum song...

I'm All Alone & I Need You Now.

7 comments:

Winter Song said...

"Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor..."

Sigh, we've all been there... but you're the one to pen it down so eloquently.

Khadeeja said...

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Such a wonderful post like always. :)

Khadeeja said...

Hi, you read/comment/follow my blog. Due to privacy issues, I changed the address. If you'd like to know, please drop me an email at khadeejawrites@gmail.com

Such a wonderful post like always. :)

Merlin said...

So you graduated, I see! :)

MothSmokeLover said...

Yup. So?

................your's entirely said...

Candid !! ...brutally

Zeeshan Ahmed said...

Speechless.